Monday, March 22, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
an old guilty pleasure
Yesterday I found myself landing on the weddingbee website. I hadn't visited this site in quite awhile now. Meaning, at least a year? There was a time when I was on weddingbee.com as religiously as xanga in its glory days. I know, it was a horrible habit which I am glad to say was broken over time.
I got to the site yesterday but become distracted in conversation and didn't actually browse through it. I guess I'm writing an entry right now because I just caved in and gave myself over to the world of DIY projects galore, centerpieces, dresses, hairpieces, veil, gift registry, getting in shape for the big day tips, etc, etc...
I think the memory of wedding bee came back to me when Manson asked if I was the kind of girl who has her wedding all planned out. My answer was not really....I've thought about different aspects of it, but I don't want to get myself too worked up or excited over something that may still be awhile off. I know myself and if I let myself dwell over and do too much oooing and ahhing over wedding stuff, its going to suck me in, in an unhealthy way. From what I remember when I used to read wedding bee pretty often, it was like a fantasy I was chasing. I want this and I want that for myself. Not that I still don't. But in wanting all those things and jumping ahead and thinking about it too much left little room for me to trust God with the most important thing among it all. That he will provide someone when the time is right and let me know when I can start getting excited =P I guess in answering Manson, I forgot that I was a little wedding crazed at one point through weddingbee.com. But for some reason since then, wedding bee and all that in general has been popping up in my mind every once in awhile lately.
I also found out yesterday that an old friend and ex bf of mine from hs just proposed to his gf. He is two years older than I and probably the person who I am on the best terms with as far as past bfs. I was really happy for him when I found out since this was something that I along with others have been predicting! But because of the news yesterday, it made me think of weddingbee again and go to it.
Its so easy to get wrapped up in that type of excitement. But I think now more than ever, God is saying take it slow. I feel like God has told me before to take it slow in other situations and relationships, like with H. But for whatever reasons, it usually moved faster than it probably should've. In the past, I know I haven't done a very good job at being patient, listening, and trusting. I usually think I can handle things on my own and be in control. Of course, I am still continuing to learn and do these things. Despite all the anxiousness that comes with taking things slow, maybe this time He is providing exactly what I need to help me really learn what slow means and is. Usually the other person is in a rush to jump into it also. This time it doesn't seem like it, which can be confusing at times. But hopefully something good will come out from it? Its hard to take things with a grain of salt but at the same time keep a balance in this friendship...
trust.
on another quick note. Quick recap past weekend. Rented a car drove to Austin to hang out w/Tiffany finally. Got my first speeding ticket ever on the way up there :( Watched Manson's volleyball game. Tried to squeeze behind the bleachers where we were sitting to get his mom's jacket which fell back there. My body fit in that gap, but I couldn't inch down far enough to grab the jacket with my foot. It felt like I couldn't slide down further because of my rear end. I know for a fact if I didn't gain the 8 pounds, I would've fit in that gap much easier. Sigh... oh well...and we ate out every single day. Stayed up chatting w/tiff until 5am, woke up late and incurred more unnecessary expenses since the car will be returned a day late. Lessons learned this weekend..
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I got to the site yesterday but become distracted in conversation and didn't actually browse through it. I guess I'm writing an entry right now because I just caved in and gave myself over to the world of DIY projects galore, centerpieces, dresses, hairpieces, veil, gift registry, getting in shape for the big day tips, etc, etc...
I think the memory of wedding bee came back to me when Manson asked if I was the kind of girl who has her wedding all planned out. My answer was not really....I've thought about different aspects of it, but I don't want to get myself too worked up or excited over something that may still be awhile off. I know myself and if I let myself dwell over and do too much oooing and ahhing over wedding stuff, its going to suck me in, in an unhealthy way. From what I remember when I used to read wedding bee pretty often, it was like a fantasy I was chasing. I want this and I want that for myself. Not that I still don't. But in wanting all those things and jumping ahead and thinking about it too much left little room for me to trust God with the most important thing among it all. That he will provide someone when the time is right and let me know when I can start getting excited =P I guess in answering Manson, I forgot that I was a little wedding crazed at one point through weddingbee.com. But for some reason since then, wedding bee and all that in general has been popping up in my mind every once in awhile lately.
I also found out yesterday that an old friend and ex bf of mine from hs just proposed to his gf. He is two years older than I and probably the person who I am on the best terms with as far as past bfs. I was really happy for him when I found out since this was something that I along with others have been predicting! But because of the news yesterday, it made me think of weddingbee again and go to it.
Its so easy to get wrapped up in that type of excitement. But I think now more than ever, God is saying take it slow. I feel like God has told me before to take it slow in other situations and relationships, like with H. But for whatever reasons, it usually moved faster than it probably should've. In the past, I know I haven't done a very good job at being patient, listening, and trusting. I usually think I can handle things on my own and be in control. Of course, I am still continuing to learn and do these things. Despite all the anxiousness that comes with taking things slow, maybe this time He is providing exactly what I need to help me really learn what slow means and is. Usually the other person is in a rush to jump into it also. This time it doesn't seem like it, which can be confusing at times. But hopefully something good will come out from it? Its hard to take things with a grain of salt but at the same time keep a balance in this friendship...
trust.
on another quick note. Quick recap past weekend. Rented a car drove to Austin to hang out w/Tiffany finally. Got my first speeding ticket ever on the way up there :( Watched Manson's volleyball game. Tried to squeeze behind the bleachers where we were sitting to get his mom's jacket which fell back there. My body fit in that gap, but I couldn't inch down far enough to grab the jacket with my foot. It felt like I couldn't slide down further because of my rear end. I know for a fact if I didn't gain the 8 pounds, I would've fit in that gap much easier. Sigh... oh well...and we ate out every single day. Stayed up chatting w/tiff until 5am, woke up late and incurred more unnecessary expenses since the car will be returned a day late. Lessons learned this weekend..
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Wednesday, March 3, 2010
T.M. and passed!
its been quite a week these past 5ish days...
* Found out I passed my state certification test for math 4-8! now need to decide whether I'll take the generalist k-6 next or generalist 4-8. I realized I am ok with working at the school my mom works at, and its perfect because teachers are responsible for the 2 subjects I would want to teach. Math and reading. Of course I still need to learn more about the administration, their planning process, teacher support etc..
* Toasts were made with awesome people, Sandy and Manson sitting outside under the sun, at the restaurant's patio table on a lazy Sunday afternoon. Good call Manson. Pray and toast originated today with more awesome people, Krystle and Megan at Agora on another sunny afternoon! Grateful for all the girls and people God blesses me with :)
* Finally bought my bridesmaid dress, the shoes are next.
* Got my doctors appt. for thyroid moved up to the end of March and I would get results in 3 to 4 days. Nervous but hoping it won't be anything meds can't fix!
* Saw this in my phone's online photo album. Completely forgot I had these which is not a good sign. Now I want to go home and dig them out!
* PRETTY :) I like this! Except the first word love is a little higher now that I look at it...
* marks from my fingers gripping my upper arm
* Found out I passed my state certification test for math 4-8! now need to decide whether I'll take the generalist k-6 next or generalist 4-8. I realized I am ok with working at the school my mom works at, and its perfect because teachers are responsible for the 2 subjects I would want to teach. Math and reading. Of course I still need to learn more about the administration, their planning process, teacher support etc..
* Toasts were made with awesome people, Sandy and Manson sitting outside under the sun, at the restaurant's patio table on a lazy Sunday afternoon. Good call Manson. Pray and toast originated today with more awesome people, Krystle and Megan at Agora on another sunny afternoon! Grateful for all the girls and people God blesses me with :)
* Finally bought my bridesmaid dress, the shoes are next.
* Got my doctors appt. for thyroid moved up to the end of March and I would get results in 3 to 4 days. Nervous but hoping it won't be anything meds can't fix!
* Saw this in my phone's online photo album. Completely forgot I had these which is not a good sign. Now I want to go home and dig them out!
* PRETTY :) I like this! Except the first word love is a little higher now that I look at it...
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