in a nutshell since the post I started on before got deleted when the browser closed :(

* section headings in Mark 4-5. yesterday at the gym after I worked out and flipping through my Bible trying to find that one verse that inspires, gives me direction, find what He wants to tell me.

Jesus Raises a Dead Girl and Heals a Sick Woman. Jesus Restores a Demon-Possessed Man. Jesus Calms the Storm. - He is all powerful, He works miracles, He does the impossible.

After seeing that, made me realize that He is able.

* Today in church, the worship song lyrics that was I needed as reminders. Although I can't remember now SIGH. Of course not because they weren't important, my horrible memory...and its been a long day.

* My mom gave me a gift from Auntie Mina for graduation. It was a frame that said Journey and Jeremiah 29:11. For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. This is one of my favorite verses to remember and keep me grounded.

* I opened Christine's gift as I got to the gym today. The tag on the bag said Believe. The gift was a decorative all hanging that said Believe.

* At the gym, I was on the elliptical and Jeopardy was on. The final question was over 19th century presidents. The question was something like, In his letter of acceptance to the GOP party, which President conclued with "Let us have Peace," which became his campaign slogan. - The answer was Ulysses Grant. 

When I saw this, "Let us have Peace" was what stood out to me. I still don't know sometimes if I try to read too much into things, or think they are coincidences, but Father, help me see that you are too great for coincidences and you know and you put things in my path to speak to me and confirm for me. I think I'm always afraid that I am wrong in trying to understand when and if God is telling me something. In this instance, I felt like He was saying, peace. Have peace about everything. It will be ok. Surprisingly, as I mentioned the job  to several plp and my conflictions behind it, I think I kind of slowly made up my mind along the way. I know I need to trust Him and do my part to use my time and treat looking for a job as a full time job. God will provide...

* Checked email when I got home. Email from Christine. I missed communion and didn't know what went on in service since I had kids duty today, but apparently He had a message in the song He didn't want me to miss. Am I just making this up God? Or really...really? Christine sending me this is meant to be? The chorus looks a little familiar, I thought maybe we sang this before they released the kids and I had to go, I'm listening to it now...yess we did sing it....I don't think all the lyrics stood out to me when I read through it all at once through her email.

incredible song played during communion today:

i think it definitely speaks to the transitions and decisions we're experiencing in life at this point--whether its full-time job search, moving away from home decisions, purchasing home decisions, starting careers, switching careers, finding purpose in our work, etc...He is there for us.  He knows exactly where He wants us and will be faithful in leading and providing for our every need: physical, emotional + spiritual.  i think the song speaks incredible hope and comfort; hope you find encouragement in it as you move through this next week.

"YOUR LOVE IS STRONG" by Jon FOreman

http://www.google.com/search?sourceid=chrome&ie=UTF-8&q=your+love+is+strong,+jon+foreman

Heavenly Father
You always amaze me
Let your kingdom come
In my world and in my life
You give me the food I need
To live through the day
And forgive me as I forgive
The people that wronged me
Lead me far from temptation
Deliver me from the evil one

I look out the window
The birds are composing
Not a note is out of tune
Or out of place
I look at the meadow
And stare at the flowers
Better dressed than any girl
On her wedding day
So why do I worry?
Why do I freak out?
God knows what I need
You know what I need
Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

The kingdom of the heavens
Is now advancingInvade my heart
Invade this broken town
The kingdom of the heavens
Is buried treasureWill you sell yourself
To buy the one you've found?
Two things you told me
That you are strong
And you love me
Yes, you love me

Your love is
Your love is
Your love is strong

Our God in heaven
Hallowed be
Thy name above all namesYour kingdom come
Your will be done
On earth as it is in heaven
Give us today our daily bread
Forgive us weary sinners
Lead us far away from our vices
And deliver us from these prisons

On another note. Met Christina's cousin and gf today at her grad dinner/party. I liked them both! He is in real estate investing and was telling about some of it and how he got into it. I am so intrigued when I listen to stuff like this and properties fixing up, rental, subleasing, acquire etc... I did ask if they needed extra hire/help, kind of in a joking way but I think he knew I was kind of serious too. I should've reminded him when we said bye that if he ever needs someone extra to do anything, let Christina know to get in touch with me. Later on, I realized maybe I should've asked what the closing process consisted of and what are examples of things he needs to get done by tues for 2 properties he is trying to close on. And maybe even as far as to ask if I could possibly tag along and just listen and watch. He mentioned he started as someone offered to let him tag along and learn observe. I don't know why I didn't think of it at the time, but I wish I offered that. That I am willing to do whatever even grunt work pro-bono since I have time this summer so I can just observe and get a feel for what its like and whether this is something I really want to try to pursue. But at the same time, I didn't want to be too pushy or direct, I just met him. On the other hand, plp need to be those things and show initiative and interest right? So how much is too much or the right time...? ahh oh well the moment passed. 


But I'm really praying somehow this initial connection may turn out to hopefully be more. I don't know if Christina can help play a part, or her cousin may even ask about me? How do I go about this God if this is something in your plans for me to pursue. Or if its not, pleasee let me know somehow..I guess closed doors hurt the most but are most blunt. But I really want to learn more and get into this...it has all the communication with different parties to negotiate, make things work, offers, arranging....etc....


i am soo tired. something is wrong with my eyes lately...scared a little, its been going on 2 wks now...