crazy week ahead & ran 3 miles today! ran 4 on thanksgiving morning with Que!! don't think I posted about it..

I wish I wrote yesterday the 29th so the date stamp could say Sunday 29th, 2009. and write about my baptism and day!

in a nutshell...since I am pulling an all nighter today =( its a cuh-razy week...

-my daily bread devotional book. Todays topic was on surrendering  and yesterday was on patience Psalm 37 which I was brought to this passage not long ago too...(the two things in my life and in my testimony...) crazy.

I know its supposed to be in a nutshell but I need to write this!

From todays devotion, I'm just going to type out exaxtly what is in the book.

Reason 1: God is all-wise and knows better than anyone else what is best for my life.
Reason 2: He is almight and has the power to accomplish what is best for me.
Reason 3: God loves me more than anyone else does.

 Chafer (president of Dallas Seminary in the early 1940's) concluded, "Therefore the most logical thing I can do is surrender my life to God. What more can I say? What more need I say?"
The apostle Paul had the same conviction. He knew that prison and hardship awaited him in jerusalem, but he also knew htat God wanted him to go (Acts 20:22-23). Even his sorrowing friends wisely concluded, "The will of the Lord be done" (21:14). They knew that Paul was right. No matter what happens, when we do God's will we're in the safest place in all the world. The Lord is all-wise, almighty, and all-loving. Doesn't it make sense to surrender your life to Him?


- I had Indian food for the first time at Shiva yesterday.

- I had a dream with Howard and Aaron in it when I napped yesterday afternoon. It was slightly weird. Well most dreams are. But I hadn't dreamt of H. since almost 4 wks now? After the first Sunday, I had dreams for 3 days straight which were all sad. My brain must've really been working/thinking on overdrive to dream so much. Anyways, this time I woke up a little sweaty which is really rare. I think it was because I was really frantic and paranoid in the dream. It was at some wedding party type function I believe and both of them were just plain drunk. Since Howard never normally gets messed up when he drinks whenever I lost sight of him I got reallly worried cause he was like a walking ticking bomb. I didn't know if he was going to be ok from one moment to the next. I tried to look for Aaron to care for him cause I think I was trying not to care for him in the dream since I guess I'm not supposed to anymore in reality? i guess? But Aaron wasn't in that great shape either and I couldn't find him at one point. I found out he ended up being in the car resting. I remember being really antsy and trying to just sit still and stay in this room that was playing a movie and trying to not worry about where Howard was or what he was doing, but I couldn't stand it anymore and went outside looking for him. Found him, saw he wasn't in good shape and I remember feeling in the dream like my heart was torn between wanting to care for him (probably cause I knew he wouldn't want me to? or I was afraid he wouldn't?) but I couldn't just walk away and leave him like that either....and I woke up since I was getting sweaty and hot. I tried to go back to sleep and dream some more but I couldn't....

- ran 3 miles around the track at the gym today. 13 times around it is really boring. Doing 4 miles outside w/Que was better!

- The girls don't want the Baer house =( its too far...8 min! something will come along...maybe better!!

- Saw another house that wasn't right today. The ones that are right and we all like are taken or for sale instead. Hopefully the owners of the blue house may be willing to lease instead of sell and at a price reasonable for us.

-Been praying about the house situation, student teaching, and everyday for him.

-Praying that I stay consistent with my quiet times, reading devotions, my books, journaling, and Bible. Its been a good rotation so far. I feel like I can't go without it. Its my way of leaning on God I guess you can say? But that was the downfall in those 3 months. When things got good and comfortable I let God fall to the sidelines. So no matter what happens with the house situation or anything else in the future, even if things are flowing smoothly, my relationship has to remain just as strong. It's funny how comforting it is to sit down at the desk, see my Bible and devotional book and look forward to the days Word. Why did I never set aside time and look forward like I do now? The saying of sometimes God takes things away from us because they are distractions in order for us to re-focus on Him until it is the right time again. Initially it may be hard to understand but I know.