i'm giving in....day 1 - food journal

I thought it was the silliest most unnecessary thing when Que told me she was starting a food journal. Her goal was to lose 5 pounds which I don't think she needs to. But of course, others will probably tell me the same thing if I said I wanted to lose 8 pounds. I used to think I was invincible and had the best metabolism in the world eating whatever and whenever I wanted to. I don't know when my fast metabolism started failing me but I'm obviously taking in more calories than I am burning. :(

Will people really tell you if you've gained weight and need to lose it? It's something I've noticed for myself, but surely some friends and my family has seen the change. But no one really says anything. Why? If its 1 or 2 pounds, ok...its hardly noticable. But 8-9? you can tell...

There's pressure from myself to stop the compulsive eating. (I read an article today in Good Housekeeping on compulsive eating. It was really interesting and was almost spot on about me.) But when no one else draws the weight gain to my attention, its too easy to let things slide, giving in to the unnecessary food and tell myself I'll start over tomorrow and eat better. But if someone else tells me, you've gained weight and need to lose it, it makes me more motivated in a sense and know I need to work harder at it, because it is noticeable not only to me, but others.

Anyways, all this still may seem silly and I'll be told you're fine. But yesterday when my dad saw me munching on dry cereal, he looked at me and sighed. He could see it. After I brought it up to my mom, she agreed and said she saw it also. It sucks but its true. You can always count on them to be honest.

A few items of clothing that I never wore because they were big, are now snug and I don't fit into two pairs of jeans!

So I'm going to give the food journal thing a shot and hopefully remember to write it down everyday somewhere..

Of course, today I said I would start over after stuffing myself yesterday with sushi, crawfish,potatoes, and corn, then some macaroni and ground turkey, and a bowl of cereal all from 5pm - 11pm.

2/17/10

- munched on cereal around 11ish am
-a little bit more cereal and an apple for lunch
- granola bar around 4
- dinner at the dorm cafeteria buffet style.
plate 1 - rotisserie chicken (white meat maybe 4 oz?), corn, green beans
plate 2 - spaghetti with meatballs, broccoli, and mushrooms and had maybe a fourth of french toast style bread with ham and swiss cheese. (the spaghetti filled half a plate, I ate half of that maybe)
plate 3 - small rotisserie chicken leg and half of a corn on cob
ice cream cone with 2 small scoops of butter pecan and 1 strawberry

When I got home: (my aunt's) the danger zone where food is everyywhere

- 3  - 4 tortilla chips with guacamole
- a few bites of pan fried noodles
- an apple pastry turnover with 2 scoops of black walnut ice cream


I'm tired of thinking and writing everything I ate.

THIS IS BAD. I'm almost embarressed to post this haha...oh well....when improvements start taking place, seeing the progression will be nice.